Hormones

I did this conceptual photo shoot as a general idea in the end of July. Little did I know in just over a month how real it would become for me. I just now, after living the concept for about 2.5 months, remembered this photo.

Actually I've lived the concept for a few years now. But it's become very acute these past few months.

This might be too much information for some people, but as a visual artist, and a very trusting person (NOT GULLIBLE!), I often might give TMI of myself... it's how I am.

Wearing my heart on my sleeve. Look at the beat of my heart.

For me this visual idea came from the exposed feeling that comes along with intense attraction. I do not get crushes (gah, is there a more adult word for this?!) often, so whenever I do get one they are very very intense and never dissipate.

Turns me inside out and upside down and I just feel skinned alive from the feelings.

I love it and hate it.

Love the feeling because it feels wonderful and high at times.

Hate it because I have never been given the chance to act on one of these rare crushes; I am an open-minded bi-asexual, so it's not the next Any One At All will do to fill the want. If it's not the crush, it's no one as I do not experience sexual attraction often.

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